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There’s no shortage of causative theories for these suicide rates. Do they result from the isolation medical students endure, or perhaps the intense competition in which they’re immersed? Numerous studies are now addressing these features. Strangely, though, no one has asked me.
I suspect the key lies in gender differences. You’ve probably noticed that women generally express emotions more easily than men do. Being female, they don’t need to exemplify male strength and cool, so they can allow themselves to be vulnerable, and to be cooperative with one another.
Physicianship has historically been male turf. My medical school class (1967) comprised sixty-four men and four women. Now, I understand, the majority of medical students are women, but it’s been a hard climb.
I remember one of my few female professors, a dignified, illustrious medical scholar, who began a lecture with a dirty joke. We laughed politely, as it wasn’t funny. Obviously not used to this humor, she’d picked something like what we giggled at in third grade. As she told it, she was red-faced embarrassed. Thinking about it years later, I realized she’d attempted to put us at ease by enacting a ritual that said, “You can listen to me; I’m one of the boys.”
I wasn’t conscious enough in those days to have pursued the subject, but now I wonder how my female classmates accommodated and responded to the subtle but endemic sexual harassment and condescension directed toward them. I witnessed one strategy in my senior year, when a female gynecology resident stood up in rounds and asked why she wasn’t permitted to perform a culdoscopy on every patient. (A culdoscopy is an invasive procedure that involves inserting a high-tech periscope through the upper vaginal wall into the abdominal cavity.) Today such a suggestion would be considered close to criminal, but then the chief of gynecology was merely curious. He asked her why she wanted to do that. She replied, “This is a teaching hospital, isn’t it?” She was one of the boys, alright, in spades.
What does it mean for any of us, male or female, to act the mythologic male? Who knows, after all, what a “real” man is like aside from the cultural images we absorb? In Berkeley, decades ago, a psychotherapist named Chris Elms (thanks, Chris!) posted flyers all over town for his men’s groups. The bore a photo of young boys at the beach around the turn of the century, posing for the camera in their woolen swimsuits. Every one of them was flexing his biceps. Elms’ caption read, “Tired of holding that pose?”
Here’s the pose: strong; invulnerable, in fact, imperturbable; confident; able to handle any situation without help. Indeed, this model runs deep and wide. It describes almost every hero, from films to comic books. Medically, it’s Doctor Christian to Doctor House, and every fictitious physician between. It’s the implicit character model of medical training and practice.
I could list hundreds of facets of medical training that exemplify this myth, but that would be a book, and I’m only writing a blog entry here. In sum, though, a bright and altruistic freshman medical student is taught, slowly and thoroughly, to ignore suffering. Don’t believe for a moment that doctors, who for a living wade in suffering every hour of their career, don’t hurt as a result.
But obviously, you can’t practice medicine if you’re continually crying. Act like a man, for God's sake. Practically, though, you need to do something with the suffering you’ve absorbed, and there are only two routes available: express it or repress it. Repression, like denial, is an effective defense but must eventually fail. A member of a cancer support group put it perfectly when she said, “Buried suffering is always buried alive.”
All healthcare practitioners, not just physicians, need a self-care tool that’s currently in short supply, the ability to express their own suffering and still practice. This isn’t an easy challenge, since it requires deep self-reflection and usually intimidating adjustments. When the old masters like Sir William Osler wrote about the sacredness of the medical profession, they weren’t just addressing the magic that ought to occur inside the examining room. They included the deep, almost mystical, preparations doctors must make in themselves.